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Being autistic and having adhd on top of it really makes enjoying things weird. Like I still love something with all my heart and try to claw my way towards it but my brain will just. Not. Let me. Because it's currently hyperfixating on something entirely else
#yes this is about bail/breha/fox I love them so much#and I miss writing about them#they are constantly in my head but my brain has forced them on a back burner#writing my wips of them one sentence at a time#personal
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bunny headcanons PLS🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 (nsfw too if you can)
Eeehehehe okay!!! (๑>•̀๑)
I don’t think I make it clear enough but Bunny is THAT ship for me. The ship that got me into shipping with this godforsaken show in the first place. Before Style wriggled its way into my heart, Bunny was my #1.
Which should mean I have a million headcanons, right? Aaahaha sort of!
I’ll start clean and lean into the really NSFW stuff later, but if you haven’t read either TSOB or EWILY, then… potential spoilers for those, as usual!
SO in my most canon-adjacent au Kenny and Butters don’t get together until the end of high school, though they’ve been friends since they were kids. They’re both pretty deep in the closet (Kenny more so than Butters) and sort of end up using one another as their (homo)sexual awakenings.
I really love the idea of Butters being a pretty innocent kid even as he gets older, while Kenny is the nasty little gutter slut we all knew he would become. Is it a self-esteem thing? Does he just enjoy having copious amounts of sex? Who could say, but I do like to think that Butters sort of brings out a softer, more emotionally aware side of Kenny.
Butters definitely falls first, though I think in some ways Kenny falls harder. I’ve always seen Kenny as being more into PDA and physically expressing his feelings for people, though I also see Butters as being a little uncomfortable with it at first. Not that the contact is unwelcome, but we already know that his family is less than accepting of homosexuality (don’t get me started on his hypocrite-ass father what a punk) so I imagine the first few months of them being together would actually be sort of awkward.
Let’s be honest here too, Butters is… not used to experiencing physical contact that’s affectionate. So at first all he can handle is hand holding and a light kiss here and there, at least when they’re in public.
You know, the funniest thing I did in EWILY was make Kenny so goddamn likable. I mean, all of my betas were obsessed with him by the end of the fic, and I can’t really say I blame them, though in truth I also think he’s kind of a dork. At least, I like to imagine he’s a little extra dorky around Butters, partially because he’s nervous and partially because he knows Butters isn’t going to judge him for not being super cool. Like, come on, it’s Butters.
Anyway, here’s a few quick-fire thoughts before I get into the dirty stuff.
They absolutely end up living together during college, though not entirely by choice. When Butters parents find out about his relationship with Kenny he either has to accept being grounded forever or run away with Ken, and I think we all know what choice he would make.
Butters tolerates Kenny’s substance use until it pushes him to A.) Do something really stupid or B.) It hinders his ability to be a functional partner.
They only get drunk together on special occasions. Butters is a total lightweight and doesn’t really enjoy drinking that much unless he feels very safe with the people he’s around.
They love doing all the most typical ‘couple’ things. Kenny winning Butters prizes at the county fair, going on movie dates and making out through the whole thing, that sort of crap.
Kenny tries to keep Butters from getting too involved in a lot of the other boys’ shit. He is not usually successful.
Okay, let’s get into the nsfw content. (˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵)
SO I think it’s pretty clear that I think Kenny would primarily top/take on the more dominant role. However, I do think he’d be willing to try bottoming, if topping was something Butters wanted to do.
Kenny is definitely the one with the most experience, but that doesn’t mean Butters isn’t a lil bit of a freak. Or a lotta bit, honestly. Think of all of the repression, and honestly he’s one of the hornier boys in the show despite his very limited understanding of why he feels those things. Neither of them really ever leave the bedroom unsatisfied, let’s just say that.
I also think of all of the main 5 they would be the most open to trying different things. They DEFINITELY get into roleplay (I have… plans around this) and I could also see them both being willing to bring a third into the bedroom from time to time. I don’t see either of them as being totally gay, and they both seem to have pretty similar tastes in women (*cough*big boobs*cough*) so it’s definitely not outside the realm of possibility.
I could see them dabbling in very limited BDSMy stuff, though I think Butters wouldn’t be super into some of the more uncomfortable physical restraints or really any pain play. The aftercare would be very much his speed though, so I imagine they would probably lean more into softer, love making stuff when it’s just them (ew).
A few more quick thoughts on the dirty stuff:
IDC what au I’m writing Kenny is ALWAYS hung like a horse. My man has suffered enough the least I can do is give him a beautiful wiener.
Butters is… not usually as fortunate. I mean, he sort of canonically has a smaller little buddy so I think that’s only fair. Not that Kenny minds, I think he enjoys how large his looks by comparison.
Kenny is definitely uncut. Butters could go either way, but I suppose I typically imagine him as having been circumcised.
Butters has the higher sex drive. I mean, think about all of that creamy goo he produced. That’s a lotta cum. While he and Kenny are generally pretty evenly matched, Kenny is exhausted after getting off while Butters is ready for round two in like ten minutes.
I think that’s all I have for now, but like I’ve been doing with Style if anyone has specific thoughts about Bunny they want to share or ask me about, you know this box is always open!
Thank you for this ask, anon!! I always have fun talking about these two when I get the chance!! (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)
#ask asteria#sp bunny#bunny#butters stotch#kenny mccormick#I love talking about these two#and I miss writing about them#I’ve had all my betas request more of them haha#maybe that’s next#after what I’m currently working on is finished of course#aaah so much to do
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ok someone please correct me if i'm wrong but am i weird for thinking those 'audiobooks don't count as reading' posts are ableist as fuck????
#ramble#my first thought was like: how is this even a debate what about blind people. not every book comes in braille but MOST have an audiobook#or dyslexic people#you still enjoyed the book!! you still absorbed it!!! you got EXACTLY the same thing as people who read the words!!!#how does it not count????#i guess you miss out on the 'learning new vocab' you get through seeing the words but also#i don't really do audiobooks but i do a lot of podcasts esp fiction podcasts#and i have ABSOLUTELY picked up new stuff from there that helps with my writing#someone please explain how this is even an argument of COURSE it counts????#idk in my opinion finishing a book means 'i put the words in my brain and i thought about them and i enjoyed a story'#not 'i held a stack of paper in my hands for a bit'#i'm v lucky that i do have time to sit and read. and whenever i commute anywhere it's public transport so i CAN bring a book with me#but if i didn't have the free time or had to drive for hours everywhere i would be STOKED to still get to enjoy books#it's been REALLY bothering me lmao idk why i feel so strongly#for some reason it's giving the same energy as like. being told you can't take a comic or manga from the library bc it's not a 'real' book#of course it's a real book it's a story somebody wrote down#i can see this spiralling into 'if you have a kindle you aren't reading'. you have to sniff the paper. feel the papercuts
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He is at his limit.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#LWJ's breakdown has been a long time coming and I love how he breaks down. It is a torrent of emotions he can't hold back anymore#He bites! He cries! He throws a tantrum!#We know from bonus content that he was a biter when he was younger but that's exactly the point. It is a childish behaviour.#LWJ has been help up to the highest expectations to be mature and beyond any childishness.#He is selfless - cold and composed to the outside observer.#It is a false ideal to live by to be disconnected from everyone. You can't be a person if you are perfect.#But by god he was never perfect to begin with. He has a terrible temper and is awkward in social situations.#He's overly righteous and rigid - And so on and so on. Both him and WWX know each other for their flaws first.#And it is not about how other aspects 'make up for it'. It's about seeing someone's worst traits and going 'I can tolerate that.'#You can't ask someone to love the worst parts of yourself. But you can show them and have them be tolerated.#MXTX did not write SVSSS and MDZS's main couples to be about seeing the worst parts of someone and still choosing them-#only for readers to miss the point of what that really means!
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the double-edged sword of old British literature is that there’s a solid chance it’ll feel gay but there’s an equally solid chance it’ll also feel racist
#red randomness#acd canon#acd holmes#raffles#crime and cricket#jeeves and wooster#poirot#father brown#biggles#<-have not read Biggles yet but have been hearing about how it fits this exactly from my buddy cel#will never stop liking old British books I am very fond of them and it bleeds into my writing style#but oh how I miss the days when I didn’t get junpscared by the n word#as an old lit fan who is both queer and black this is my eternal struggle#100 and up neat
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griddlehark modern pen pal au where they don’t know each other but are assigned as pen pals for those pen pal projects you get in middle school and it just turns into them sending each other hate mail and somehow they just keep going for several years, even though they dont rly have to
#smth about them yearning through letters???? sign me up#this was inspired by me sending a lot of letters at work today#n also inspired by my old pen pal ly (if u r readinf this i miss u sm)#the locked tomb#griddlehark#i kinda wanna write this but i have never written anything rly#maybe one day idk#harrowhark nonagesimus#gideon nav#gideon the ninth#bonus points if stop at some point because Emotions and then one day at a rly low point one of them sends a letter to the other#ans they just start up the whole thing again???#one day harrow would def be like im at this coffee shop at this time meet me if you want#and gideon would drive any distance to meet her or smth#and they r both like?????????? thats what you look like#and then they live happily ever after or smth#i might delete this later#also idk if that pen pal project thing is A Real Thing In Real Life#i think i mightve made it up
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Dick 'my mental stability is hanging by the rope that snapped and killed my parents' Grayson met Bruce 'emotions aren't real if you don't acknowledge them' Wayne when he was 8 years old and he never recovered.
#dick tries to have a normal day but all he gets is mixed signals from his dad and a traumatizing event (very probable)#“I miss you”#“now get out of my house”#← I'm paraphrasing but yes he's said that#I'm so sick of them one day I'll write the longest vent about them and nobody can stop me#their relationship is the definition of 'complicated'#dick grayson#nightwing#robin#bruce wayne#batman#bruce and dick#dc#dc comics
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early 2000s indie band “fire&ice” make their debut ✮
✮ art donaldson, 20, singer and guitar-player. down-to-earth, slightly shy, cute blonde hair and the brightest blue eyes. status: single.
✮ patrick zweig, 20, drummer and occasional singer. a total flirt, rough-around-the-edges, pretty freckles and a killer smile. did we mention he’s brunette? status: it’s complicated.
the two young musicians are making their rounds in the state, and are already selling out shows. consider us impressed, boys !
an inside source claims that merch is on the way, but you’ll have to be quick about snagging some — limited amounts + crazy fans = hard to keep stocked ..
rumor has it that the boys already have tons of loyal groupies, oh my !
an interview with one of these so-called groupies recently revealed that the lead singer is “good with his mouth” and the drummer is “good with his hands”.. we’ll leave it at that ;)
their hit song “crushed” is taking over the country — heartbreak sells, people ! now the real question is: which member wrote it, and who were they writing about?
good luck on the road, fire&ice, we’re excited to see where this musical journey leads you both x
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ref : indie sleaze pat and art
#i missed thinking about them#i kinda wanna write a full fic about them and their band#groupie!reader x fire&ice ?#ive never really made one of these collage posts before but they’re so fun#cutesy#art donaldson fic#patrick zweig fic#art donaldson x you#patrick zweig x you#challengers fic#art donaldson#patrick zweig#art donaldson smut#patrick zweig smut
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something something scar is still in the desert but grian is still in the cactus ring. something something scar will look back on third life and remember the good, but grian can’t look at third life and see anything other than the blood on his hands. something something scar knows he can never return to the desert but grian can’t escape the cactus ring.
#do you hear me in here?!?!#they make me ill#i miss them#there’s so much i can write about them omfg#im stuck in the desert#grian#goodtimeswithscar#scarian#third life#third life smp#life series smp#the life series#desert duo
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Andrew having piercings is so right and real in my mind that every time I remember that it’s not canon it makes me pause.
But we know it’s not canon, bc if it was, then we’d have at least 15 paragraphs all about them and their placements and the way the light glints off them from Neil’s obsessed ass lmfao
#oh dudes I miss them so much#I loved every bit of them I got from tgr but boi I needed more 😭#I feel like I’m on the edge of maybe writing fic for them but idk#I love them so much I’m terrified of not doing them justice#especially cuz both of them are so particular and so different from me or anything I’ve written before so idk if I could dip in their heads#and voices accurately enough#mhmmm much to think about#aftg#Andreil#neil josten#andrew minyard#aftg trk#tfc#tkm#aftg tkm
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I love Vulcans we need to get more into the emotional lives of Vulcans without imposing Human standards onto them. "The way you feel is wrong/repressive because it's not the way it's "supposed" to be from my perspective as an alien called Human" is boring to me especially when it's treated as correct. I wanna know how the aliens feel about their alien way of life. Vulcans are so interesting to me when written AS aliens and not as analogous to repressed Humans. I think about Tuvok's description of attachment to his family and how that isn't the emotion 'love' but something else, something that he feels no shame about having and sees as normal, as naturally Vulcan and I love it and I love it because there aren't any Humans there to go "Um actually checkmate you Vulcan s.o.b - that's emotion!" and he isn't being influenced by anything. These are his authentic thoughts. He sees his children, his family, as part of him. They were at times illogical, incomprehensible, and it was extremely rewarding to be in their lives. He thinks about them every day. They were well behaved. As teens they were contemptuous of authority and convinced of their own superiority. His youngest son loved one 200 verse story so he sang it to him. He'd rather die than betray his wife even in spirit. He's incomplete without them. It's obvious through Tuvok that Vulcan life is not inherently devoid of pleasure, comfort, or love and thus Human life (I think) should not be portrayed as inherently having something greater, deeper, more meaningful. I'm not talking here of society but of...emotional life. Interiority. There's this sense that all Vulcans are the same and miserable for it. That they hold themselves back and are indistinguishable and antagonistic to the self, repressed and wrong. That to be Vulcan is to suffer endlessly and Humans are all about Freedom Man and I don't know, I like that Tuvok's existence sort of challenges this as much as I acknowledge that Vulcan society is in fact repressive and unwelcoming to those who don't fit neatly into it. I'm not saying Vulcan society is a utopia, I'm questioning the perception of Vulcan emotional control - that way of life - as being inherently bad, devoid, or lacking. That Vulcans walk around with 'empty cups' and are only deluding themselves that to be that way is good. If only, Humanity moans, they could taste how delicious life could be! Tuvok is an average Vulcan. He does not struggle with emotion, he is not mixed species, he was not raised atypically, and yet he has a family he cares about and a wife he's loyal to and friends he values and none of these things seem to be Un-Vulcan to him. If Vulcan life was truly devoid of love and care, Tuvok wouldn't think of his family. They're not here, so why bother? When his pon farr came, he'd be trying to find the most compatible mate rather than risking his life by trying to meditate through it out of loyalty to T'Pel. T'Pel would also have just given Tuvok up for dead instead of waiting and his children wouldn't have traveled all the way to the most holy temple on the planet to say prayers for his safe return. I think these things are interesting and I wish they'd been explored more. The fact that caring about your family, caring about your friends, is not Un-Vulcan. The fact that Tuvok at no point longs for Humanity, sees nothing better or of interest to him in it. (Even in his teenage rebellion he only says he's sorry he was born Vulcan which reads less as Vulcan v Human and more like 'I hate this goddamn family' ykwim?). I want to know more about how Vulcans interact with each other, how they care for one another, what it means and what it's like to be Vulcan in more of an everyday way rather than what it means to be Vulcan vs Human.
#Vulcan emotional control WOULD be bad for Humans. But they're aliens. So.#I wrote this off the cuff v_v sorry if it just rambles in circles#I just don't like when Vulcans are written to be 'like us but missing out on something beautiful'#I think of people who don't live anything close to my life's experience. Are they lacking in something? Are they not living a 'full' life?#I'm not neurotypical - am I missing something essential to living a 'real' life because of that?#some people don't experience empathy - are they lesser because of it? No#I love my fellow man I guess. I think maybe in the far far future I'd hope that being just like me [human = neurotypical white american]#isn't a prerequisite for friendship and love and maybe we can just have harmless and beautiful differences#I wonder what's so good - INHERENTLY good about having emotion. What does it mean to be good? What does it mean to live 'fully'? As a Human#As an Alien? What does it means to have a life? Be alive? What's love and why is it important? What do these concepts mean to an Alien?#In Star Trek Voyager Ayala's son and Tuvok's son both pray for their father to come back home - is the Vulcan prayer lesser?#All this to say that I /AM/ going to make my own no-emotions aliens to put in star filled oyster - you just know I'm going to do that#there was no other option for me it was written in stone from oyestar's conception and I hope you'll all read the story#I eventually write with them even though you'll no doubt raise your brow and look me in the eye and go 'oh big surprise the Vulcan guy wrot#this. Oh hey look everyone the autistic Vulcan guy is musing about emotions what a surprise' and I'll be tugging at my shirt collar#like a cartoon character and gulping comedically and sweating bullets#Literally as I wrote that last sentence I realized I'm dissociating I'm going to go eat ice
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have not sekai'd in while, but got hit with the urge™ so,
whatever, go my yuri
#kenzie art tag#pjsk#project sekai#prsk#proseka#pjsk fanart#colorful stage#nene kusanagi#kusanagi nene#mizuki akiyama#akiyama mizuki#mizunene#i should get back into writing silly fics about them#it'll be fun#i say. despite having one million things i also say i should do#anyways my girls... i missed them so much..
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Maybe they should try having a conversation
#I actually miss them so badly#I don’t think I’ve ever posted faybees on here before but if you’ve ever talked to me you know how I feel about them#someone ask me about them. I will psychic beam you every thought I’ve ever had.#paragraphs.#FAyBees#figaydabees#figayda#faebees#figsten#what would Kristen and Ayda be called#applefort#this is beautiful I get to just do whatever I want because nobody cares#I’m gonna write an essay#fantasy high#d20#fhjy#undescribed#my art#ew! art
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Ghost Lilith
Anybody else sometimes forget about Lilith outside of season 1 unless she's brought up again on, what feels like, rare occasions?
Sometimes I do
I kinda wish she had more of a presence in later seasons, the other season stories are fine without don't get me wrong but I think it would just be cool to have a ghost/spirit Lilith pop up every now and then that only Mc is aware of or something like that
Ive seen a headcanon from someone that sometimes ghost Lilith helps Mc cheat in tests or they just chat sometimes and I love it to bits
I like to imagine that sometimes Mc will go to Lilith's room (bet yall forgot about the room too!) in the HoL and just chat with her ghost to either de-stress or have some time away from everyone else, especially when the brothers get really rowdy
I feel like when Mc is more worn down then normal and they don't feel like they could go to any of the brothers or other boys, they'd go to Lilith and that she'd try her absolute best to help her descendant/brothers' lover cause fate only knows what would happen if Mc actually snapped from everything
And also cause she cares a lot for them in general
Ghost Lilith would definitely play sneaky pranks on all the brothers and she'd either get Mc in on em or would make sure they were present when she does em
Ghost Lilith and Mc are quite the devious pair, maybe even more so the Satan and Belphie
I mean one is a ghost who is only able to be truly noticed by 1 person, and that said person is so powerful they have to wear a special op ring so they don't make the 3 realms collapse from their mere existence
Mc and Lilith be having tea in her room while the rest of the house is on fire and being destroyed frfr
Credit to @sister-lucifer for the divider
#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me nightbringer#obey me mc#obey me lilith#obey me brothers#obey me demon brothers#obey me demons#obey me angels#obey me solomon#Obey me ghost Lilith#I sometimes miss Lilith's presence in the story#But on the other hand I imagine that Mc has/had serious issues (like Satan) about being from Lilith#Especially when the brothers realized Mc was related to her and they went goo goo ga ga over them#Not sure what it's called though#But basically sometimes Mc can't help but think that the only reason that the brothers care so much about them is because#They are related to their beloved dead sister#And that all they see is their sister instead of who they really are Mc#I might make a separate post about that#Cause I just realized how many and how long those tage about it are#When I write for Mc you can insert yourself#Anytime I write about the brothers they are all with Mc#Cause I love all the bros pretty much the same#obey me rambles#obey me x gn!reader#obey me x gn!mc#obey me x reader#obey me x mc#obey me brothers x mc#obey me brothers x reader
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I CAN’T STAND THEM!!!
#‘it would be a shame to miss this. *looks up at the northern lights in awe*’#‘yeah… *is staring at awe at him instead*’#fuhghghwgrhghghh#*continues writing on my google document. . . . .*#I CANT STAND THEM HOW ARE THESE BITCHES SO HOMO-#moominvalley#snufkin#moomin#snufmin#moomintroll#moomins#they show up in my brain at least ONCE a day its been five years guys. . . .#aster rambles#IF YOU’VE WATCHED THE SCENE YOU ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IM TALKING ABOUT.
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me: apple white is actually a really complex character and her moment with the evil queen was one of vulnerability because she can't be frustrated with how things turned out anywhere else and some part of her was still bitter that she had to give up something good for everyone else. the evil queen knew this and was playing on it. she was also playing on the pressure that snow put on her as well to 'get her happily ever after'. all of this resulted into her throwing the apple in the direction of the mirror in frustration (most likely to get her to shut up), which accidentally caused her to free the evil queen which she did not mean to do. once again afraid of making a mistake and this time having people KNOW about it she then covers for the evil queen as she's afraid of what people will think of her and not anything else because she's a flawed character. the evil queen the promises her happily ever after of course but apple doesnt really have a say in it as she's forced to do whatever the queen says in order to keep the facade that shes 'perfect' because (once again) her upbringing made her scared of making any sort of mistake so she tries to cover for herself instead.
people for some reason: YOURE JUSTIFYING HER FREEING THE EVIL QUEEN!?!?!?
#im not justifying it but explaining the complexities behind the situation that for some reason people miss#apple has flaws and its perfectly fine not to like her for those and think shes annoying because of it. but completely ignoring her writing#and her character is annoying as hell. shes a teenager who was brought up for one thing. ruling the kingdom for her story#so when that falls apart and she gives that up of course shes gonna feel antsy and a little bitter about it. i didnt like this personally#but it does make sense for her character and how she has little empathy for the rebels as she doesnt understand them#now... WHEN SHE FREED THE EVIL QUEEN it is not something that she did on purpose. it was an accident that was set off by frustration#it was the accumulation of all her faults come together and her freeing the evil queen helped her see that. shes not justified in doing it#but just straight up making it seem like apple meant to do it and MEANT to ruin everything pisses me off sm#apple white#eah#ever after high
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